I really feel like I’ve not had the motivation to really do anything with this site in quite a long time. I have big ideas for just about everything I do but somehow I always fail short when it comes to doing something with them. It pretty much is a mirror image to my weight loss struggle. I just can’t seem to kick my own ass.

I’m going to take a little bit and try to figure out what I want to do with this space and then hopefully launch and actually update.

Do not read this if you haven’t seen the finale yet. It will contain spoilers!

After watching the finale there were a few things that really stood out in my mind. One of the first questions that I’ve read on twitter was if they were in heaven and if in fact they all were dead. The answer is no to both.

The Church had symbols from every faith in the stained glass, not just Christianity. As far as the other thing was concerned Christian Shepard answered it perfectly when he said everything that happened was real and did happen. There was the flash forwards and backwards but the side flashes are what really stood out to me. It was the paths people took if the plane hadn’t crashed and the path they took once it did.

I think they were trying to say that in our lives these paths exist all the time but our choices are what lead us down those paths. We have people who impact our lives in different ways based on those choices but the rolls they play could be totally different based on the path choosen. Jack really did have that kid in another path, place and time. Since time doesn’t exist and there is no present time or past or future they were all happening at the same time.

They touched on reincarnation quite a bit in the show as well and transcending energy and moving on to the next plane of life which I thought was cool too. Most of what they talked about is very much the same way that I think so I was very happy with the ending.

Thank you LOST for making my brain hurt, my mind open, and for always making me excited for the next episode. It was a good run.

Make sure you swing by over my sister site www.fat2fit.net and check out my entry.  It’s something I feel has a place on this site and the other but it’s more on par with the other.

As I’m sure you all know there was a guy that shot up a gym in Pittsburgh.  My friend sent me a link to his online journal where he basically documented his thoughts and ideas on why he ended up being as screwed up as he was.  Strictly from a Psychological point of view it’s interesting and sad at the same time.  The worst part is he mentions about how people might study his writings for insight into helping others and he’s probably right.  I actually am on the fence about posting it myself as part of me doesn’t want to give him the satisfaction.

My heart goes out to anyone directly effected by what happened.  This is a guy who was motivated by religious beliefs, rejection and isolation.  My question to you is this… how do these websites with all the signs not get noticed until after the fact?

Wow.  I’m super busy lately.  I thought my schedule after I graduated would calm down a little but it’s been just as busy as it was when I was in school.

Currently working on:  websites for sovereign collective, rip ink, friendly fire (gaming cafe), and possibly a music store.

I’m also of course working full time and trying to get the house stuff going.  It’s a lot of work!

Over the weekend I managed to track down the contact information for one of my friend’s family.  I was very excited for this because I hadn’t talked to them in years.  Some of you that worked with me may have recalled my friend that passed away back in 2000 named Joey.  This is his family we are talking about.  They were always a second family to me so I’m really glad I got in touch with them.

This weekend I’m headed to Columbus to get my half sleeve finished and talk some negotiations about doing the website for the place that does my ink.  They just opened an amazing place that does tattoo, has an art gallery, art library and more.  I’m going to try and trade up website work for some time on my other half sleeve that I want to start in the spring.

I’m turning a year older on Thursday and I’m a little bummed.  I’m having a party the 14th and most of my closest friends can’t make it.  Boo to you sirs.

So, people who have read my site for the last ten years might remember a spunky lady by the name of Lisa and her buddy Don.  Well, after probably 7 years I managed to get in touch with them again!  I’m super excited to see they are doing well.

This weekend I will be finalizing plans for a house I’m going to be building this year so once that happens I will make sure I post the plan and some pictures.  It’s going to be awesome when it’s done!

Well, I’ve managed to finish my degree after 3 very long years and about $35,000 in debt.  I’m so happy to be able to finally work normal hours and go to bed at a decent time.

The next thing on my list is to start working on all the things that got neglected while I was in school.  My body, my future wife, and my website projects.

Coming soon: mindtrance might build a house?

Well, as of this Saturday 11/15/2008 I’m engaged to the coolest girl I know.  I’m so lucky and dare I say blessed to have Kaele in my life.  I’ve seen her become independent, stronger, wiser and just more amazing over the last few years from overcoming obstacles in her life.  I’m very proud of what we have managed to make it through together and I look forward knowing we can make it through anything.

I proposed to her at the Largest Indoor Waterpark Resort in the United States in front of my family and the boys.  I had planned it out in my head to be more personal and romantic but it all just happened so fast and it just seemed like the right moment.  We haven’t set a date and won’t for awhile but I’ll keep you updated when the time comes around.