I’m was sitting here thinking about a few things and I wanted to try and write it all down.  I realize that I only write on this sight every once in awhile because I’ll come back and read and reflect on what came out of my mind later.  If I wrote everything that was going on in my mind all the time I’d either look insane, or brilliant I’m not sure which.

I set high expectations for my life.  I’m starting to realize that in order to truely be a great man, you must not expect to be great in all that you do.  You must do those things which define you as a person greatly and great you will be.  I have always felt like I needed to do something big, pivotal, world changing with my life but I don’t think that’s true anymore.  I dream of doing such things but I can’t constantly TRY to do such things.  My actions must shape my life first and hope that the people who see me live will find meaning in what I’ve done and use that to inspire themselves to do more.

I can’t believe I’m almost 30 and I still don’t know what I want to spend my life doing.  What do I want to be remembered for?  It’s not being all over the place and never accomplishing something because I can’t focus on one thing.

So I downloaded the new DMB single from the new albulm for free today (thanks to Dave and Twitter).  It’s much different than anything I’ve heard them do before.  It almost makes me think it’s a cover because it’s that different than what I’m used to hearing from them.  The lyrics are very DMB but musically it’s much different.   It’s interesting in a good way.

I was listening to a few interviews about the albulm and basically this is the disc he’s the most proud of.  Everyone really got to input a style that was their own and then they put them together so when it comes together it’s pretty cool.

Have you ever asked yourself this question?  I don’t mean what do you believe blindly… I mean have you given thought to what you believe, done research, expanded your soul to come to these conclusions?

I have but I’ve never documented it before.  I’m starting to realize that I spend a pretty good chunk of time distracted from myself.  I’ve become swallowed whole by an assault on my senses of what we call life.  Technology, Television, Movies, Music, Books, and so on.  How many people know what happened on American Idol last night but have no idea what the government is trying to pass to “save” our economy?  The media is saturated with news, but news blurred like a heavy night of drinking… it’s not quite the truth and not quite real but you know something happened there and you don’t really want to think about it.

It seems like my life is passing by faster and faster with every blink of my eye… what have I accomplished?  What do I have to show for 30 years of being alive on this planet?  I’m about to start a family, and I’ve maybe made a few people think about the world or themselves.  I might have shown a side of myself that changed someone forever.  Am I capable of more?  Does the world demand more of me?  I’m not sure… but I think I demand more out of myself and it’s time to stop letting it sleep.

Have you heard the song from the Geico commercial?  It’s a cover of Rockwell feat. M.J’s version of Somebody’s Watching Me.  The damn song is catchy in that annoying club beat sort of way.  I’m a fan of the original so I sort of like this one. 

True story — Michael only sings the chorus of the original song and Rockwell asked him to do a song with him.  Michael walked in and sang only the chorus that he made up, and they built the entire song around what he sang for those 2 lines.  That shows what a pimp MJ was back in the day.